Midian City Tober's Diary #18

Tober's diary is composed in a small, hardbound book that she keeps with her.

I had a couple of somewhat harrowing experiences with the Pack recently, and unsurprisingly, they both involved Dethis getting into trouble. The first thing was, she got into trouble for god knows what, and Angela chained her up to a bunk in the den. Well, Angela, Dita and I were down in the den too when all of a sudden we hear a loud noise coming from the door on the surface. We open the door and spring out, and there's two people - a man and a woman - trying to cut open the door with an acetylene torch to get into the den to get to Dethis. It was fucking ridiculous. They claimed that they were only trying to make sure that she was safe because Angela had "kidnapped" her, which is not exactly true. Eventually, we got them to leave, but it was pretty scary, considering that I only have my throwing knives for weapons. Plus, I'm a medic, not a soldier...but sometimes I have to do what's needed, just to keep up my image as a loyal Pack member.

Then, a few days later, Dethis somehow gets herself caught and beaten by Mari of the Catwalkers. Mari hung her, unconscious and bloody, by her tail on the second story of some ruins over in the area we call "Apocalypse". Mari just sat there on a lawn chair next to Dethis, not saying a word as several of us Pack members surrounded the area below. This was a difficult situation for me...I don't think Mari knows that I'm working undercover, and she's a very dangerous neko. Aside from that, I didn't want to fight her, but I didn't want to appear a coward in front of the Pack either. Mari wouldn't respond to us when we called out to her...she was waiting for us to make our move. It seemed like this tense situation was going to go on forever until Mari finally yawned (I assume out of boredom), kicked Dethis onto the ground, and then leaped away. After that, we had to carry Dethis back to the Pack den, and of course I had to treat her. She was really beaten up and shot too. I ended up having to improvise some surgery on her to stop internal bleeding. I'm not a doctor by any means...I don't know how I did it. It was the worst thing I think I've ever had to do to someone else. Once she was all sewn up and stabilized, I broke down crying as I was cleaning myself up by the sink. I quickly pulled myself back together though, just in case someone else saw me.

I don't know how much longer I can keep this up, to be honest. I do like my friends in the Pack, and I have been loyal to them. I have also been loyal to the Catwalkers, and still am...but something has to give. Every day I question my decision to do this mission, and every day it becomes more dangerous for me to be here.

Faith and Tober coming to Dethis' rescue in Apocalypse