Happy Anniversary!

Today marks one whole year that Chloe and I have been together. She has been such an incredibly wonderful part of my Second Life, things simply would not be the same without her. Chloe, I love you very much, and I'm so happy to be with you! Happy Anniversary, sweetie!

To see a slideshow retrospective of our year together, go here. (It will run in reverse-chronological order)

Midian City Tober's Diary #31

Tober's diary is composed in a small, hardbound book that she keeps with her.

Now that Linds and I are officially together, I have to tell Anna that things are over between us. Not that there was ever really much there, but she had much stronger feelings for me than I ever did for her. I hate to break her heart, but I know I will. I'm going to find her right now to talk to her, and I will write about my meeting with her after it happens.

Tober and Anna
Ok, I don't know how to begin. I talked to Anna, but there's something horrible (the rest of the page is torn away at this point, as well as the next page.)

11 Months!

Today marks the eleventh month that Chloe and I have been together. She continues to be such a wonderful part of my life, and I couldn't imagine being with anyone else in SL. Love you, kitten! =)

Midian City Tober's Diary #30

Tober's diary is composed in a small, hardbound book that she keeps with her.

Well, this is an entry I never really expected to make...

I hadn't seen Lindsay around for a couple of days, so I decided to ask around to find out if anyone knew where she was. As it turns out, she went into some kind of crazy surgery with Aiven to have that weasel thing removed from her! And she didn't even tell me! Right after I find this out, who should appear up on the roof, but Lindsay herself. Of course I was overjoyed to see her, but also kind of annoyed that she didn't mention anything to me before she got it done. I told her this, and she told me she didn't want me to worry about her, so she didn't tell me. I approached her, and reached out to her nervously to give her a hug...the first time we have ever been able to hug!

Lindsay & Tober's First Hug
When we hugged, she told me that she now felt she could trust herself enough to be able to leave the city without harming others. I think the disappointment in my eyes was clear, because then she said "...unless you want me to stay." She then nervously leaned in and gave me the gentlest kiss on my lips. I knew then that what I had been feeling for Linds, she had been feeling for me too, but we just couldn't express it to one another. Not without me getting hurt.

I don't remember what I said next, but I lead her to the Kittenwalker cuddle area of the rooftop, and she and I curled up together. I have never seen her relax like this before. She began to doze and was grooming me as she was dozing off. It was such an amazing and special moment for both of us. Now...our relationship is something more than mentor and student, more than friends. We have love.


Lindsay & Tober Cuddle for the First Time

10 Months!

Today marks the 10th month that Chloe and I have been together. Suffice to say, I'm very happy to be in a relationship with the sweetest kitty in SL. I love you very much, Chloe =)

Just look at her...what's not to like?

Midian City Tober's Diary #28

Tober's diary is composed in a small, hardbound book that she keeps with her.

Duke has been missing for a few weeks now. Nobody seems to know where he's gone or if he'll be back at all. I guess I really shouldn't let myself get very close to anyone here because one day they just might be gone. Left...dead...whatever. I don't even know how to really feel about it anymore, either. I just feel kind of blank.

And then there's Anna...I want to trust her, but it's like there's a barrier between us that won't let that happen. She's elusive, difficult to read, and doesn't like to speak much about her past or her present. It's obvious she has something to hide; something tragic, and I have no idea what it is.

In better news, I've been promoted! I'm now the "Stitcher" for the pride. It simply means I'm a medic. I share my title with two other cats, Landen and Osoth. They both have much more experience than me, but I know my post-war relief background will come in handy. I've treated everything from cuts and scrapes to broken bones and gunshot wounds back then; hopefully I won't have to do anything worse than that with the Catwalkers. I'm really happy with my new role! I'm not really a fighter, and I like to help others, so this is an ideal role for me. I just hope my efforts are satisfactory to Rith and Chai. I'll try my best.

Since I've been in the pride, I've also made quite a few new friends...cats like Myca, Scytale, Dui, Sarika, Tora...they're all really cool. I feel like I have a real family again.

Well, that's about it for now, I guess.

Left to right: Scytale, Myca and Tober

Happy Valentine's Day!

Valentine's Day is special only to people who are in love...otherwise it's usually hated. Depending on my relationship status, I fall into either category. Guess which one I fall in this year? ;-)

In case you were wondering, here's the Valentine's Day card I sent to Chloe:



Yes, it's Charles Darwin. Yes, I'm a dork.

And for those of you who are significant otherless this Valentine's Day, don't fret...there's always next year!

A Big Oops

I feel doubly bad writing this, considering my last post, joking about irreconcilable differences...

I made a big mistake yesterday: I thought Chloe's rezday is today. It isn't...it was yesterday. Of course, I feel like a supreme jerk.

However, today marks the 9th month that Chloe and I have been together. And you see, since I thought her rezday and our month-i-versary were falling on the same day, it would be super-special. Obviously I was wrong.

So please everyone, wish my dear Chloe a happy rezday. She deserves it.

Midian City Tober's Diary #27

Tober's diary is composed in a small, hardbound book that she keeps with her.

I've noticed that I've been letting a lot of time go in-between my diary entries. Sometimes it's just too much to write about, or I'm so busy and have so little time to myself that I really don't have the time to get into it. I don't like neglecting my diary because it really helps for me to get everything out, even if it is just on these pages.

So, I've been with Duke for a bit, and that's been going ok...until I met Anna one night. I don't know why I can't simply be happy with one person...I guess I just crave affection...and there always seems to be someone willing to give me it, especially when I'm in one of my vulnerable moments. My drives are more those of a cat than a human. My dad knew I was like this...that I thrive on the affection...which is one of the reasons why he told me to never become anyone's pet. He didn't want to see me become a slave to my thirst for affection. The thing is, I just can't help myself sometimes.

When I met Anna, I was completely drunk and nipped to boot. She found me at the Four Horsemen, flirted with me, then offered to take me home. We took a walk through the park, and she lead me to a secluded spot. Even though I was fucked up, I knew what was happening the moment she started talking to me back at the bar, and I didn't care about the consequences. When we went to the park, I let her do whatever she wanted to me. I don't remember much of what happened, but I was left with a bruise on my inner thigh and a headache from all the booze.

Anna. I don't even know her, but there's something about her that...I don't know...I don't know what it is. It's strange. She seems dangerous, and tragic, but I want to know more about her...even though my instincts are telling me to leave this one alone.

Tober and Anna

Here come the brides!

Chloe and I have decided on a date for our wedding. It will be on February 9, 2008 around 11am SLT.

The ceremony will be held on our land, the reception's location is to be decided (yes, we're waiting until the last minute!).

Midian City Tober's Diary #26

Tober's diary is composed in a small, hardbound book that she keeps with her.

Well, Duke and I are officially "dating"...as much as it's possible to "date" someone here. I like him...he's very sweet and really cute, but I'm a bit worried about his history with the Pack. I know that they still hassle him about leaving the Pack, and I got to witness it first-hand.

Speaking of the Pack, I guess we lost the "war" with them, because they're now allowed back in Midian, though still not allowed on our territory: the catwalks and roofs. What really bothers me is not that the Pack is back in Midian, or even that we lost, but the fact that there was a "war" at all. I have a unique perspective, having been both a member of the Pack and now a member of the Catwalkers, and I honestly think all the animosity started with some kind of minor misunderstanding and escalated from there. But, I guess it doesn't matter now. Hopefully we can put all this behind us.

Duke and Tober at The Twilight Zone, where Duke works

8 Months!

As of today, Chloe and I have officially been together for 8 wonderful months. And as soon as we get all the planning squared away, we will be having our wedding ceremony =)

Thank you, Chloe, for making the past 8 months so very special.

She asked...

And I said yes. It's been a long time coming, but Chloe asked me to partner with her. All this time, I though I would be the one to get to pop the question...surprise, surprise. =)

Chloe, sweetie, you have given me the best Christmas gift I could ever hope for. I love you.

Midian City Tober's Diary #25

((Sorry for taking so long to write a new entry! I've been very busy lately.))

Tober's diary is composed in a small, hardbound book that she keeps with her.

A lot has happened in the past three days. I'm writing this right now while resting in the den...because I was almost killed a couple of days ago.

Things with The Pack finally came to a head, and I found myself in the middle of a gunfight with only my throwing knives to defend myself. I didn't do so well, and was shot several times. All of the Catwalker kittens had been ordered to take cover in the church during this battle, so I made my way from the area of the fight to there. I barely made it inside the church before collapsing to the ground, much to the horror of the poor kittens inside. Luckily for me, a couple of them have medical experience, so they were able to perform first aid on me until they could get me back to our Gore Room.

I don't remember much of what happened in the church, but according to some reports, Kohji came in and either refused to help me, or just ignored me, or didn't offer to help. I honestly don't know what happened, but everyone's reports about the incident are at least plausible. Supposedly, something happened to Sarika and he refused to help her as well...so anything is possible.

Rith is not pleased

I vaguely recall being carried back to the gore room by Dui. That kitten is a real trooper. Once they got some blood back in me and gave me something for the pain, I was a bit more lucid. There was a lot of arguing...between Dui and Kohji and Lindsay and Kohji. I recall Kohji trying to choke Dui. Soon afterwards Rith showed up and put an end to the fighting. I think Lindsay was ready to rip Kohji into tiny pieces...and it wasn't just because he didn't help two nekos of the pride...it was because one of them was me...and Lindsay cares about me a great deal.

After I had the bullets removed and was bandaged up and stabilized, Lindsay carried me back to the den and made sure I was comfortable. I'm not sure what happened right after that. I could hear a lot of yelling through the walls of the den, but I ended up passing out. I was woken up gently by Rith so she could ask me what happened in the church, but I couldn't really give her much information...it was all a blur to me. She then let me go back to sleep.

I found out the next day that Kohji was kicked out of the Catwalkers by Rith. He probably thinks I had something to do with it, but honestly, I didn't. I didn't like him, but I never lied about what he did, because I still don't know exactly what he did. I can't really say I'm sad he's gone, though. Anyway, Linds has been taking care of me the past couple of days, which I really appreciate. I'm doing ok now...I can get up and walk around a bit, but jumping is out of the question. Of course, I'm going to have scars on my body, but they shouldn't be too visible under my fuzz.

Linds is coming by in a little bit with some sushi for me. I have to admit, I think Linds and I are beginning to have a mutual crush on each other. Unfortunately...a relationship with her would never work. Not with all her "defenses". Besides, I'm probably reading too much into her care and affection anyway. I've been known to do that before. Gotta go. She'll be here soon.


Poor wounded Tober

7 Months!

Yep, I almost didn't have a chance to post about it today, but it's the 7th monthiversary for Chloe and I. And Chloe is back on broadband (finally!!) so I can actually do things with her...like celebrate our time together =)

8 Things Meme

Ok, by now you know how I am...I don't do memes, really. But...I was tagged by Codebastard Redgrave, so here goes:

Here are the rules:
(1) Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
(2) People who are tagged need to write a post on their own blog (about their eight things) and post these rules.
(3) At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
(4) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

Perhaps I'll follow Vint's lead and have some facts about me-in-SL and me-in-RL...

1. October, Tober, Tobie...they're all me. And by me, I mean she's the RL me as can only be perceived through the SL interface. Tobie is my soul incarnate, my avatar. In both worlds, I am honest, funny, kind, giving, bright, affectionate, curious, creative, sensitive, slightly shy, and quite a bit silly. If you like me in SL, you will most likely like me in RL too.

2. In RL and in SL, I own motorcycles. In RL, I have a 1970 Honda CB100 SS, and a 1972 Honda CL100. The CL100 isn't ready to ride right now; it's a project bike. The CB100 is my baby, and I ride her all the time. I've owned her for about 10 years now, purchased from the original owner. She is in great condition and I take very good care of her, doing all of the maintenance and repairs to her myself (it's a lot easier than you might think it would be, trust me) Here's a photo of her:

"Baby"
Click on it to see it full-size

In SL, I have a BMW R50 with removable sidecar, a Suzuki GSXR replica, and an SL-version of my Honda CL100 that my lovely Chloe had custom made for me. =)

3. I make electronic music. I do so sort of the "old fashioned way" by using hardware synths, drum machines, samplers and sequencers. I use the computer basically for recording what I make, and also for mucking around with audio files in Sound Forge. Somewhat ironically, I don't consider myself a musician...it's because I have no formal training. My method is purely by trial and error and a lot of messing around. The kind of music I make is acid techno, idm, electro, dark ambient, and experimental noisy stuff.

4. Not only do I make electronic music, but I also make some of the devices used to make the music! To date, I have built two Roland TB-303 clones, effects processors, noisemakers, and circuitbent items. I like making things because it puts me in a state of mindfulness, similar to what yoga does.

5. In other music-related factoids, I've also been DJing for Midian City's radio station, KAOS Radio, at least a couple of times a week for the past month or so. It's something I've wanted to do for a while now, and I'm really enjoying it a lot. And, I actually speak during my sets, just like a real radio dj! But, I get to swear ;-) I also make silly comments and play funny public service announcements. If anyone's interested in knowing when I'm playing my sets, let me know in the comments or IM me and I can give you the stream url so you can listen if you're not in Midian City.

6. I am an out-and-proud bisexual, both in RL and in SL. Unfortunately, I've been single in RL for a few years now. The last date I went on was about a year and a half ago. =(

7. I used to be a professional photographer. After college, I earned an associate's degree in a lifelong love (photography) and was a pro for a while. I owned my first fully manual 35mm camera when I was 6 years old, which I purchased from a yard sale. I still have it, and it still works. I left professional photography to do something very closely related: photoshop. I've been employed as a digital image specialist for an ivy league university for several years now. I enjoy my job, but I do miss being behind the camera, too. I guess this explains why my photos are usually well-composed and honest, if not particularly glamorous or glitzy.

8. Eight...eight...I forget what eight was for.

And I tag...nobody! Why? Because fuck that, that's why. If you want to do this, be my guest. Just leave a comment here saying you're doing it because you read it on my blog, ok?

6 Months!

I almost didn't have a chance to write about this today because I was so busy both at work and at home after work...

Today marks the 6th month of Chloe and I together as a couple!

Despite the difficulties with her being on dialup for the past few months, we still feel the same about each other as we did when our relationship started. She is the person I feel most comfortable with in SL, I am always happy to see her and be with her, and to put it quite simply: I love her.

Thank you for being such a wonderful girlfriend, Chloe. =)

Happy Monthiversary!

Chloe and I trying out the bed in Octoberville
This past Saturday marked the 5th month of Chloe and I being together as a couple. As luck would have it, we were also able to spend the evening together, and Chloe was on broadband for the weekend!

Thank you, Chloe, for making these past 5 months so very special =)

Happy Monthiversary!

Yup, it's that time again! Chloe and I have been together for 4 whole months today. I know I couldn't be happier, and it's pretty safe to say that Chloe feels the same way too. I love my sweet, smart and beautiful kitty =3

Happy Monthiversary!

...to Chloe and I! It's been three months today since Chloe and I have been together as a couple. I can't wait for her to be back on broadband again so we can go on our little adventures and have fun.

Chloe and I on the sofa in my skybox.