Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Midian City Tober's Diary #1

Tober's diary is composed in a small, hardbound book that she keeps with her.

I probably shouldn't be writing down any of this at all, but fuck it. A couple of days ago I was convicted of posession and distribution of narcotics. My dad would be so disappointed in me if he were still alive to see this day. But, he's not. I don't know what he would think if he knew I did it for him...just to keep him and I alive. That didn't work out so well; the cancer got him anyway and now I'm a convicted criminal. Way to go.

At least I'm not going to jail. They gave me a suspended sentence of 2 years, with parole, because the prison is filled over capacity with criminals far worse than me. Even as I write it down on paper right now, it doesn't seem so bad, but then I think about all the other ramifications of my conviction: I have no money, I'm ineligible for student loans to go to college now, and most universities won't even accept someone with a criminal record. Nevermind the fact that I'm a neko and most humans look down on me like I'm inferior to them. They can deny me entry to college just because of what I am. But, I was smart enough to graduate high school a year early, which is more than what most of them can say.

I can't even think about it anymore...I have to put it out of my mind because if I don't, it will really get to me. My life has totally changed now, and I just have to accept that. Part of my parole is that I have to get a job–one they'll assign me–partly to pay for the court and "incarceration" fees and partly to just keep myself alive and a "contributing member of society". They're assigning me to one of the government subsidized housing units tomorrow once I get out of this halfway house. I can't wait for that. God, I really hope I get a decent job. Maybe I should have worked for my dad like he wanted me to before... Maybe I can get a job working on some mechancial things. I have a little knack for that. Or like, in a hospital or something since I have emergency medicine experience. We'll see soon enough.

6 comments:

Tiana Meriman said...

it will be interesting to read your diary. hopefully things will go better cause lots of bad things happened :(

but knowing midian city i fear this is just the calm before the storm XD

October Hush said...

Yes, things will not really get better for poor little Tober. I am looking forward to writing about how she goes a bit feral in Midian, though.

Thanks for reading the diary =)

Katrina Mishow said...

I always love looking at other roleplayer's stuff. I contemplated (and still am, really) looking into Midian.. but I'm soo not into the darker theme stuff.. ::Shrugs a bit.:: I just don't think I'd fit in too well. I'm too bright and happy for it. ^^;

October Hush said...

Aww there's room for everyone in Midian. Honestly, I really just play myself. I'm one of the nicest person in Midian, and the funny thing is that the "bad guys" like me too much and are usually nice to me...haha! As I say, don't underestimate the power of cute ;-)

Katrina Mishow said...

Haha.. Maybe. Then again, it'd help if I had someone to kinda show me 'round, instead of trying to jump in on my own. ::Shrugs.:: Who knows, maybe someday. We'll see. ^.^ Looks like an interesting place, I'll say that.

October Hush said...

I didn't jump in on my own, actually. There's the Midian City RP Academy now. It's just one class to get you started on the feel of rp there. Of course you can take more than one class to fit your comfort level. It's good! *thumbs up*